Today, I am in bedIn my very own roomIn my very own homeThat I have created I might get myself up,Make coffee, andCome back here to write,But not yet First, I want to imagineWhat happens whenMy heart says stop,And my breath lets go,And the travelerWithin me carries on Able to replayAny story in my lifeLike … Continue reading Poem: The Other Side
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Guide My Heart, Ohio Part 12
“Our Lord does not look so much at the greatness of our actions,or even at their difficulty,as the love with which we do them.”– St Therese of Lisieux A few days ago, I asked myself a question: When does it feel like I am the most loving to myself? Answer: writing, reading, resting, and praying. … Continue reading Guide My Heart, Ohio Part 12
What Happens in Tahoe, Stays in Tahoe
Last weekend I went to Tahoe for a Belden family wedding. It takes me some time to realize I have not been in Northern California, on my own, since 1991, with the exception of three days after Mom died, in 2014. It takes me longer to note that I have let go or walked away … Continue reading What Happens in Tahoe, Stays in Tahoe
Valentining
It seems right and fitting to write on Valentine’s Day from New Hope, a town where I celebrated Valentines in 1991—dinner at Hotel du Village—two weeks after getting engaged, senior year in college. If you’ve followed my story at all, you already know this lifetime vow lasted twenty years. After that, many years passed during … Continue reading Valentining
Hidden in a Teardrop
One must never let the fire go out in one’s soul,But keep it burning.- Vincent Van Gogh It was the summer before college, and as a graduation present, I was on my way to Caracas to visit a friend, via Miami. But first, my wallet and passport got stolen—an anxiety nightmare that lingers to this … Continue reading Hidden in a Teardrop
Where I End & She Begins 